[help] My dog died.

So my dog that was about to turn one was slaughtered by the neighbours dog. If you were to read this, it looks like it totally was my fault but if you're willing to read on please understand.It died by digging under the fence that separates my neighbours house and mine. It went underneath the fence, then was attacked by the two dogs that my neighbour owns. By the time I saw him, his snow white fur was brown full of dirt, his guts were spread around his body, his neck was torn apart, and his eyes were no longer what I remembered them to be. He was taken from me and I didn't know about it until it was too late.Around 5pm in the afternoon I was awakened by unfamiliar knocks on the front door. It was my neighbours, who didn't say anything but what happened with my dog. They invited me in their property, and showed my the remainders of what I knew to be my best friend covered with a towel on top of him.I'm not the owner of the house that I reside in though I live with my family at the house. It's my parents house.The backyard is concrete slabbed except for the side that is next to the separating fence. Soil and plants surround the fence. I didn't know that it was possible for my dog to dig underneath that fence let alone that part of the fence existed. I rarely go out the backyard much and I always assumed that the concrete stopped to where the fence is, but I found out it was half a metre away from the fence.I was at home that day. I thought I had work so I slept in until an hour before my shift started. My mum usually gets home from work the night before to drop me off to work. I didn't know I didn't have work that day until I checked the schedule on my phone. I got out of the house to check on my mum and tell her I didn't have work that day. After that I slept a little more until 2pm.I had to wake her up cause she had to pick my siblings up. I checked on my dog because he was at the backyard. He isn't usually out there but for the past couple of days he was out there because my dad told him to keep him out there. I didn't think of letting him inside the house because of what my dad said. I didn't think of letting him inside the house because of how I thought the backyard was made.I thought he would be fine.My mum left for my siblings and I went to watch a movie and sleep a bit more. When 5pm hit, that's when I got the news.By the time everyone in my family found out, my dad was furious at me. He kept saying that I should've let him in and it was my fault that I let the dog escape the backyard. He said it to the point where I believe it myself that it was my fault.I don't even know how to deal with this. I'm grieving over the passing of my dog and on top of that I have to deal with getting blamed for this mess. I'm being alienated from everyone. I think I'm losing it.I loved him because he taught me how to be affectionate again. I miss him and I want him back. Seeing him in that state and seeing how his eyes were never going to look at mine again, really hurts me. He wasn't warm when I last touched him and his body was too soft to be alive.I don't know how to deal with this.Can you help me? via /r/dogs http://ift.tt/2s44hsg